O my people, trust in him at all times.
Pour out your heart to him,
for God is our refuge. Psalm 62:8 (NLT)
Her writing is an embrace; it’s an “open the heart and let me show you what He’s done” faith in action. Reading her thoughts scribbled at her blog was my draw to Carmen Horne. I knew we would want to hear from her here on Bearing Branch. Although the Louisiana girl and I have yet to meet face-to-face, our common foundation of Jesus is enough. He’s always enough, isn’t He? She is a fellow writer with Compel Training, an online writer’s training group hosted by Proverbs 31. Involvement in that group was our introduction, a heart for women and Jesus was our connection. You will be blessed by Carmen and the words she shares. Enjoy!
I rarely pour my heart out to anyone. I share many things with my husband or best girlfriend but there are always places in my soul I leave untouched – veiled.
Maybe those places seem too dark or maybe they are just too painful.
What do we do with the little sacred boxes within us that contain our hidden worries, hurts, disappointments and fears? Not only those things but our unrealized dreams that we can’t bring ourselves to vocalize? What if we say those dreams out loud and…what if they never become reality?
Most often we carry them with us as a weight on our souls. We smile, go to our workplace, take care of our families and attend our church while ferociously guarding those secret places – even from our own view.
If you are like me, you may have multiple boxes that you are trying hard to keep the lid on. You know those little “nesting” boxes? I have some cares that I have placed into the smallest box. I often try to deal with what I think is the main issue (the big box) but the lid seems to be stuck on that little box. Because, what’s in the little box is really what I’m running from.
For me, the problem lies in trust. Do I trust God? Will I allow Him access to what I have concealed? He has proven Himself to me over and over yet I have buried some things so deeply, I am afraid to uncover them. I don’t question His love for me but I know that when that lid opens, He and I will have work to do. Hard work. The kind that sometimes seems worse before its better. I know because we have opened boxes before and it wasn’t a party.
In the verse above David pleads with us to pour out our hearts to God. He reminds us that God can be trusted for He is our safe haven.
I’ve been working on prying some lids off boxes. I’m working my way down. God lifts the corner but when I don’t think I’m ready, I push that corner right back down. In His patience, He waits. He waits because He knows me and He wants me to be well and whole. He knows that’s I want too.
What do you have all neatly wrapped and hidden? When you are ready, God is. He’s waiting for us to invite Him to the unveiling. Transparency with God might not be a party, but it can be a celebration.
Carmen’s writing comes from the heart of a woman who has been broken and put back together more than once. Like so many others, her life has not always turned out like she had planned.
Yet, she feels so blessed. She has been married to her fella for 37 years and they have a beautiful daughter who is a joy.
Women’s ministry is where she is called to serve. Writing is one way God uses her to pour into the lives of His girls. Carmen loves to talk and laugh so should you meet, y’all would sit down for a chat and would be laughing before you parted.
Big family gatherings, church potlucks and get togethers with friends are some of her favorite times. She loves to study God’s Word, especially with a group of women in her home. Learning together builds friendships for a life time.
Carmen loves the beach. The sound of the waves, the smell of the salt air and the breeze blowing in off the water ministers to her deeply. Did I mention she LOVES dark chocolate? Her family calls the Bayou State home.
Wherever you are in life, you are welcome to stop by for a visit here and join in the conversation as women of all ages talk about life together.
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