“You’re critical. You’ve always been critical since the day I was born,” our offspring unexpectedly spouted in my direction. The child’s eyes focused directly on mine. It was obvious their abnormal fury of words were driven by the moment’s frustration.
It was a defining moment.
In the past, I would have allowed that comment and other negative hues to paint my identity.
Not good enough.
These were the oils used to paint my self-portrait.
They were oils based heavily on what I was capable of, my works.
They were so subtle, I had no clue I was being deceived.
But not this time.
Not with this girl.
Not since the Holy Spirit had counseled me in Truth.
“That is not true,” I retorted with a calm but firm tone. “I am not defined by criticalness.” I stood quietly in the midst of this new confidence, but my thoughts soared on eagle’s wings. Yes, my identity is not longer stolen by darkness. It is in Jesus.
Truly, our identity is bound solely in Christ.
For years we can go through the motions, sincerely wanting to believe we are who God says we are.
We can be a Christian for double digit years and still struggle with trusting and believing God’s Truth in certain areas of our own lives. Our faith is given to the lies instead.
We know the Scriptures, dancing with their quotes often. We want to believe them, but something is holding us back. Our head knows the Truth, but our heart hasn’t cried, “Sold!” just yet. We continue striving in our own power to be good enough.
Don’t be deceived.
Good enough is never good enough.
Jesus, however, is always enough.
God is in the business of performing heart surgery to paint a new portrait. In my case, it was as if He said, At your very worst, I still accepted you. I still loved you. There never was and never will be anything better you can do to earn My best. Your works are not sufficient, but My grace is.
It doesn’t take being the perfect mom, void of parenting mistakes.
It doesn’t take dressing the prettiest.
It doesn’t take having the most successful or best-looking husband.
It doesn’t take being the skinniest or most fit.
It doesn’t take having the smartest kids.
…the cleanest house.
…being involved in every good church activity.
…having the best grades or always winning.
…having a successful career.
It takes Jesus.
Our worst, that moment when we sought Jesus for salvation, has already occurred. (Assuming you’ve accepted Him as Lord. If not, feel free to gallop on over to this page.)
Did you hear that?
It is finished.
Truly, the portrait is painted by the hand of the Master.
If you’re still striving, trying to be good enough in life, may I pray this prayer with you?
Your works are wonderful, we know this full well. You are the author and Perfecter of our faith. We believe You have more, so Lord, we ask You to reveal any areas where we are not trusting You for our identity. Heal us by Your strong hand, Jesus. Fill us with a trust that truly believes we are who You say we are, a trust that it is not based on our works or anyone else’s. Show us who we are, and may You get the glory. In Jesus’ name, Amen.