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Your Story: Nicolette Choi

August 4, 2015 by Kristi 25 Comments

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It’s my privilege to introduce you to a sweet, beautiful Hawaiian sister. Nicolette Choi and I met at a church small group on the island of O’ahu. We hit it off immediately, our kids did as well. I love this girl and all God’s glory in her. God’s righteousness in Nicolette shines like the noonday sun and gets brighter with each passing week. I believe the best is yet to come. If you’ve ever felt “not pretty enough” or “unaccepted” for being you, perhaps God has a word for you through this powerful testimony.  

 

But thanks be to God, Who gives us the victory [making us conquerors] through our Lord Jesus Christ.

1 Corinthians 15:57 AMP

Broken family
Sexually abused
Scarred
Too much of this, too little of that
Unwanted
Overlooked
No good.

Doesn’t exactly sound like a conqueror to me. Victorious? I don’t think so.

Then again…maybe, just maybe it was the perfect breeding ground for God himself to move in and be glorified through it all.

It’s in the overcoming of hardship and trial that one can claim victory.

In my life, I have had my share of hard times. I’ve also experienced first hand, the healing power of God and the victory that ensues as I have held on to His promises.

One such promise was to restore my identity – starting with my name.

My whole life I went by shortened versions of my name. I despised my first name and was insulted to be called by it. It was partly because of a childhood incident when a classmate innocently asked me why a brown girl like me had a white girl’s name.

In that moment, that one instance, I allowed my name, a part of my identity, to be taken away from me because I believed a lie that I was unworthy simply because of the color of my skin- the way I looked. I grew to secretly resent both aspects of me – my physical appearance as well as the name that I was unfit to be called.

I believed a lie that I was unworthy simply because of the color of my skin… ~Nicolette Choi

But there is more.

The first knock came when I was told I was supposed to be a Nicholas. During my mother’s entire pregnancy, she and my father celebrated the notion of having a son and naming him Nicholas. It wasn’t until I made a dramatic and surprising debut in the front seat of my dad’s car on the way to the hospital that my parents found out that there was to be no Nicholas, so they named me Nicolette.

I’d been born a disappointment and then given a name I felt I wasn’t pretty enough to be called. It was the making of a lifetime full of confusion about who I was and what was I worth on the most basic level.

For many reasons, my name and physical appearance being big ones, I spent most of my life battling depression.

Growing up having to listen to jokes about my skin being too dark and my body being too thin, among many other insults, sealed the message within me that I was worthless and not good enough physically. Compounded by the sexual abuse I endured during my early childhood years, I was left broken and hurting and searching for a way out. If there was a time where I could have used some victor, this would have been it.

My entire outlook on life was filtered through this lense. I saw everything and everyone through my unworthiness. I desperately wanted to be loved but built walls so high and thick that to penetrate them in order to reach my heart was next to impossible. Without God that is.

I saw everything and everyone through (the lense of) my unworthiness. ~Nicolette Choi

 

Que Jesus’ entrance:

In 2008, Jesus did the impossible.

He grabbed a hold of my heart, brought me back to church and through intercessory prayer healed the parts of me that years of lies and abuse had stolen. There is still work to be done; but forgiveness and healing entered my inner most parts and chains were broken that I told Him time and again could never be loosed.

I knew one day I would be called to share my story that He might be glorified through it all. I knew I wanted others to experience the same kind of healing that freed my heart and allowed me to love and be loved. I didn’t know what that would look like or when that day would come. Despite my desire to help others, becoming even more vulnerable was not something I was looking forward to.

In 2011, the Lord spoke to me about going by my full legal name, Nicolette. It may not sound like that big of a deal to most people. However, for me, this was a reminder of my unworthiness and being unwanted. I also knew that if He was asking me to do something, it was always for my good!

 

 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 ESV

 

I had felt a stirring in my heart about my “true identity” and how it was related to my calling. I knew He was asking me to go public about something I revealed in small groups and to trusted friends, but never publicly. Now, He was asking me to do exactly that. I was mortified at the thought of someone being able to Google my name and know one of the most painful secrets I have had to bear was there on the screen. My pain open and available to scrutiny, judgement, criticism.

I secretly hoped that partial obedience would be enough.

If I just wrote out my story, He would come through at the last minute and not ask me to publish it.  I fought Him for weeks. I had written it out and made a little website just waiting to be shared. But pressing the “publish” button was something that I felt I could not physically go through with. Thankfully, through the power of praying friends and family I eventually gathered the courage to “do it afraid” and my blog went live. People from all over the world were reading my story. People were seeking Jesus and finding Him. Pointing precious souls to Jesus is all that I had wanted and He was answering that prayer.

After publishing that post, I no longer felt ashamed.

There was a new level of freedom that washed over me and a renewed sense of love for people. That is not the last time that I have proclaimed the love of God or His miraculous healing power in my life. That is just one instance of His goodness to me, and I will share it because I am compelled by the spirit of God to ‘go and tell the world’.

 

 But thanks be to God, Who in Christ always leads us in triumph [as trophies of Christ’s victory] and through us spreads and makes evident the fragrance of the knowledge of God everywhere,   2 Corinthians 2:14 AMP

It is always to glorify Him and to be used in the aid of healing and victory for others. God is the one that leads us in the way of triumph. We can trust that He is doing a good work and He will be faithful to complete it. So you don’t have to be on the other side of your issue before you encourage someone in their struggle or praise Him for His goodness.

God is doing a good work in us and is faithful to complete it. ~ Nicolette Choi Click To Tweet

Go ahead and praise your way through despite where you are in your journey right now…spread the aroma of His sweet presence wherever you go, victorious one!

 

About Nicolette ~

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Nicolette is a wife and a mama to 5 beautiful little people. She is absolutely passionate about helping people learn how to walk this life victoriously through the power and love of Jesus. She has an unhealthy appreciation for pretty office supplies and a sucker for cute packaging. If she isn’t wrangling children or cleaning messes, you can find her attempting to be creative while drinking copious amounts of chai tea lattes. She loves deep conversations and enjoys having them often with whomever has the time to engage.

Photo Credit: choiphotography.com

Connect with Nicolette here:

Twitter: @nicolettechoi
Blog: herains.weebly.com
Instagram: nicolette_creates

Linking with other writers of faith here: Intentionally Pursuing, Purposeful Faith, Holly Barrett, Jennifer Dukes Lee, Holley Gerth, Susan B. Mead, & Counting My Blessings. Please join us. 

 

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Comments

  1. Crystal Storms says

    August 4, 2015 at 11:33 am

    Nicolette … I think the name suits you. I looked up “Nicolette” to be sure, and according to babynames.com Nicolette means “victory of the people.” Through your words of what God has done in and through you, others are breaking free and finding victory in Jesus.
    Thank you, Nicolette, for sharing your heart and, Kristi, for sharing her words at #IntentionalTuesday on Intentionally Pursuing. : )

    Reply
    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 4, 2015 at 3:54 pm

      Yes! Isn’t God amazing that way? I love when he brings things around full circle. I discovered the meaning of my name when I was younger but never appreciated until my healing journey began in 2008.
      Thank you so much Crystal for your kind words! I really appreciate it!

      Reply
  2. Samantha says

    August 4, 2015 at 2:42 pm

    Such a wonderful testimony of how Christ makes us beautiful in His image. Blessed to be your neighbor from #TestimonyTuesday.

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 4, 2015 at 3:57 pm

      Thank you Samantha! Blessed by you as well!

      Reply
  3. Janet says

    August 4, 2015 at 3:23 pm

    Nicolette is a beautiful name, and yes, I looked at your photo – You are a beautiful woman. Your words and your story, even the lovely introduction by Kristi are not only beautiful – but they are powerful. The love you speak of – that relationship you have with God through Christ – is more than beautiful, more than strong; it is holy. It is healing. It is precious. Your testimony blessed me today. Thank you

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 4, 2015 at 4:38 pm

      Thank you for your sweet words Janet! They blessed me so much!! You are a blessing!

      Reply
  4. Jessica Lauren says

    August 4, 2015 at 5:58 pm

    Nicolette,
    I’m partaking today in your powerful testimony – God’s faithful pursuit to redeem and restore and even reclaim your precious name – ‘Victory of the people’! He is your banner dear one – keep waving it high! Thank-you for pouring out your heart and beautiful words. Blessings of JOY!

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    • Suzi says

      August 4, 2015 at 8:17 pm

      Your story is one of inspiration and beauty. It is a reflection of not only whose you are, but who you are…. Bold, courageous, strong and faithful. #yourstoryHisglory. Love the fact that He has brought you as my friend..

      Reply
      • Nicolette Choi says

        August 5, 2015 at 11:52 am

        Thanks Suzi! I am thankful for having you as my friend too! More than you know!!!

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 5, 2015 at 11:51 am

      Thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words! I truly appreciate it from the bottom of my heart!

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 5, 2015 at 11:56 am

      Thank you Jessica Lauren! Thank you so much in turn for YOUR beautiful words! Your kindness and encouragement have touched my heart and I am so grateful! Have a beautiful blessed day!

      Reply
  5. Bomi says

    August 5, 2015 at 8:14 am

    Thanks so much for sharing:) Awesome testimony – Praise God for His mercies and grace in our lives! The best is yet to come by God’s grace. Have a blessed day!

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 5, 2015 at 11:54 am

      Yes! Thankful for His redeeming love and grace! Thank you and have a beautiful day as well!

      Reply
  6. Tiffany says

    August 5, 2015 at 12:15 pm

    Nicolette – you are beautiful and so are your words. What a powerful testimony of God’s goodness and proof that we are all precious and chosen in His sight. Our true identity is before our audience of One and you have glorified Him here today. Thank you, Kristi for introducing us to your dear friend.

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 7, 2015 at 3:54 am

      Thank you so much Tiffany! Your words are a sweet aroma to this spirit of mine. You are so precious and I am thankful to have met you here! Be blessed!

      Reply
  7. Lux says

    August 7, 2015 at 4:32 am

    Jesus can really do amazing things. Sometimes even those we think are beyond repair, He can make brand new. 🙂

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 7, 2015 at 3:31 pm

      I agree 100%! The very thing I told God He could not ‘heal’ me from (the sexual abuse) was the very FIRST area He touched and brought healin to. He is amazing!

      Reply
  8. Michele Morin says

    August 7, 2015 at 8:08 am

    Overflowing grace! Thank you, Nicolette, for sharing your journey. Thanks be to God for His healing and redemptive work!

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 7, 2015 at 3:32 pm

      Amen Michelle!! He has been so good to me and it is such an honor to be able to share that with others to bring them hope in His love and helping power as well. Blessings!

      Reply
  9. Debbie Prater says

    August 7, 2015 at 8:46 am

    Nicolette, I loved reading your story. You have a precious sweet heart. I like your name, but I can see how because of the story behind the name it affected you. I felt much the same about my maiden name. I have a painful past and that name is associated with it. I have changed so much because of what Jesus did in me that person is a stranger to me. You have a powerful testimony. I know its painful to share, but there are so many hurting people who need hope. Bless you girl!

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 14, 2015 at 6:50 pm

      Debbie!! I don’t know why I am only seeing your comment just now! Thank you for sharing! It is so amazing to see, or hear rather how God is able to redeem those things that hurt us the most! The crazy thing about this particular ‘hurt’ in my life is that I have been extremely intentional and conscious in the things I say and when I have named my children. It is important to God and so He has made it important to me! I understand how the past can seem so far removed from you. I feel the same! I’d love to hear more of your story if you decide to share it. Hugs and blessings to you sweet sister!

      Reply
  10. Deb Wolf says

    August 7, 2015 at 2:29 pm

    Beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing your story! God is doing a beautiful work in each of us. I can see that beauty in you and in your words! Blessings!

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 7, 2015 at 3:34 pm

      Thank you Deb! That is incredibly kind of you to say and I appreciate it greatly. Love and blessings to you!

      Reply
  11. Liz says

    August 7, 2015 at 7:29 pm

    Such a beautiful story, Nicolette! The chains are broken, praise God! So thankful for your brave obedience to share His healing work in your life and point others to the freedom only He gives.

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    • Nicolette Choi says

      August 8, 2015 at 2:17 pm

      Amen Liz! He is awesome and good! Thank you for your sweet encouragement!

      Reply

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